Some days, I feel like a down-right crappy mom. Some days, I wonder how we survived the day. Some days, I just need to sit in the swamp of life and let the presence of Jesus take the day over. Most days, my humanness tries to take control over a situation. But then, my Jesus says, ok girl time to get up and remember that you are the daughter of the one true King. Yep, nothing like a little slap in the face to get me out my funk.
I think we can all relate to feeling like we are inadequate from time to time. I love Jesus with my whole heart you guys, but there are times when I feel less than qualified to be His daughter, let alone trying to raise the next generation of disciples when I screamed at those sweet darlings to take their clothes to their room for the tenth time.
Let me tell you what.. it is time we shut off the lies that swim around in our heads. We are called and equipped by Jesus. Whether we are raising young disciples, folding laundry or leading worship- we are called by Jesus to be exactly where we are at. I am guilty of letting those lies sneak in and control how I respond. We need to start stepping out and proclaiming Jesus over our daily lives. We need to silence the lies. The lies can be of the enemy, but they can also be made up within our own minds. When we silence the lies, we are leaning to lean not on our own understanding, but we are learning to seek Jesus in every aspect of our lives. I am growing daily in my relationship with Jesus. The definition of spiritual growth is constantly seeking more of Him and less of self. Sweet friends, I am far from perfect. Far. From. Perfect. I fail each and every day, but I am constantly seeking a deeper relationship with Jesus. I find myself getting caught up in the ways of the world rather than turning to God. I am trying to use my mind, words and actions to glorify God. When my thoughts, actions and words do not glorify God, I apologize and seek forgiveness. I apologize to my kids for losing my temper.
One thing I would love to see more of is a community of believers supporting and walk alongside others to encourage and build the Kingdom. I am guilty of worrying about my own walk and not necessarily coming to the aid of others when I should. This is an area that I need to do better. I certainly want others to grown in their relationship with Jesus.
Surrender. This is a tough one for me. I am head strong and like things my way. It has been a huge personal challenge for me to accept that His ways are always good, mine not so much. I have struggled with having a sense of independence and at the same time being dependent on Jesus. I am working to retrain my brain to seek His ways before my own. I have to say Jesus your way not mine over and over, multiple times a day.
Here’s some truth. Some days are just crappy, and it is ok to have a crappy day. Jesus is good all time, even in those crappy moments and crappy days, He is still good. Jesus is always present. His ways are good and will always be good and He will meet you right where you are. Sitting in the presence of Jesus is the best way to turn a crappy day
Matthew 16:24 ESV, Then Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.” Take some time and reflect on this verse in the next week. This is the ultimate verse on what surrendering to Jesus looks like.