How I Use My Spiritual Gifting

I never thought in a million years that I would be writing about my love of Jesus and be a part of an amazing ministry that gathers women together in fellowship. Remember gals, there was a time where I wanted nothing to do with God. I was broken and incredibly sad, but then Jesus. Ah yes, my favorite part of my testimony, but then Jesus. Let me tell you friends, when it comes to the “but then Jesus…” well…that is simply when things get good. Jesus took my broken heart, and He is using me and my spiritual giftings to reach other women for His glory and His kingdom. What a blessing and an honor! And seriously, I am overjoyed that my testimony is being used to allow other women to meet Jesus for the first time. For another woman to grow in a personal relationship with Jesus. And share with another woman the love that comes from having a relationship with Jesus. A ministry that I very much ran from and blatantly told God this is not something I can do. I kept pushing back and Jesus pursued with more vigor. Let me tell you something, He did not stop there. He invited other women to stand beside me in this new adventure. Women I love dearly and who have become some of my dearest friends. He has not only inspired a ministry but an amazing sisterhood of Jesus loving, coffee drinking, praise report shoutin’, hands raised worshippers on this side of Mississipp.

And time for a little truth, we all know that I was not “feeling this.” And here’s why, I will just lay them right out in the open. In all honesty, other women can be catty and full of drama. Woman can bring out the best in other women and they can bring out the worst. Yuck and no thanks. You cannot make everyone happy. And lastly, I do not feel I am equipped. Well…this is another one of those sweet, but Jesus moments. He stepped in and kept pushing for Chosen Women’s Ministry to move forward. He equipped us as he saw fit. We have put Him first in all this ministry has to offer. We just want the ability to have women- both young and old- love on each other, serve each other and simply do life together. We were thinking of a almost Godmotherly concept. Where older and younger alike can pour into each other. Please note, I did not say fairly godmother. I mean that might be nice. Poof…and my house is cleaned with no effort from me…does sound appealing, but I digress, again.

Basic concept is for women to come together and join in fellowship. We want to serve each other. Here is where the Godmother concept comes in to play and almost like a reverse Godmother concept too. Women from high school age and beyond to come together and just be in His presence. Here is a little premise as to how we got here. I was the oldest child, I always wanted an older sister. Someone to pour into me. I did not really have that growing up. I certainly did not have a woman who poured into me as a Christian woman that was not related to me. Grandma Rose and Aunt Glenda prayed A LOT behind the scenes. Well now, as a mother of a Junior in high school, I am seeing so much from other women pouring into my daughter and guiding her in her faith, like a Godmother if you will. I do not really think I realized the impact that we as women have on other women in our Faith walk before listening to Lisa Bevere discussing Godmothers. I cannot love this concept enough! It is so empowering to speak life into another woman regardless of where she is currently walking.

I have realized that God has used the combination of my love of Jesus and gifting in writing to reach women. I am blown away and humbled by the outpour of love and support that I continue to receive from family, friends and the sisterhood of believers. I love to use my real life to illustrate God does not call perfect Christians, but he equips us to world changers for His glory. My goal in my writing is to have women see Jesus through me, a woman who is far from perfect but runs to Jesus at every chance she gets.

The Perfectly Imperfect Proverbs 31 Woman

You guys! I am so stinking excited for April 10th! That day marks 90 days since my book launched. It may not be a big deal to many but to me it means the world. It means that I let go of fear and yes to stepping out in faith and sharing my heart and love for Jesus in written form for the whole world to read, should the whole world want to! I am still in such awe that God allowed all of this awesomeness to come together! He is so so good! It took me longer than it should to start using my spiritual gifts. I love sharing my heart for Jesus with other women. I am thankful beyond words that Jesus allows me the opportunity.

Please feel free to share this book with any women who would be blessed by this book.

Thank you for sharing this book along! I appreciate you all!


Life Update

The boys are close to wrapping up their seventh grade basketball season. They are excited to keep working with Joel to gain more knowledge and improve their skill sets. Did I mention these boys are twins? Hard to tell, huh?

Our Junior in high school is LOVING her first season cheering for basketball rather than playing basketball. She is one of the most joyful cheerleaders!

Keith and I are trying to find balance to be everywhere at once- as parents, we all know this too well.

I am working on Keith to get a she shed. This would be a great place to work on writing, to pray and to just have some space that is my own. I am thinking farmhouse chic.

Other than that, no real updates. Travel softball is gearing up. Boys are debating how they are going to spend their Summer. More to come!

I am working on a new project that I am beyond words excited about! I cannot wait to share more info in the near future.

Keith and I are doing a Bible Study through our church on Revelations. OH. MY. GOODNESS. We have been researching and learning so much! A book in the Bible that used to cause me so much grief is quickly turning in to one of my favorites.

My friend and I started a Women’s Ministry called Chosen Women’s Ministry of KS. We are so excited for what God has in store for the women and high school girls in our community. Here is a link to the Facebook page if you are interested in checking it out.

Jesus, I am praying for more of you and less of me in my every day life.


Brogan is a guy on a mission in this pic. Their school clearly needs to clean and paint the walls. Wowsa!
Brody during warm ups.
Kinsley cheering during a high school game.

She’s Sunshine on a Cloudy Day

This girl is my whole heart. She is literally sunshine. She is one of the most joyful people that I have ever been around. This girl is full of life. She does not fit in with the status quo. She was never made to fit in. Jesus has plans for this girl. I get the honor of being her mama!

She’s got a heart of gold. She loves without ceasing. She makes my heart full and happy.

She is growing into a beautiful young woman- both inside and out. She has some amazing roots and we are now headed into the unchartered waters of allowing her to spread her wings. As a self-professed helicopter mom, I am struggling!

I mean, I basically realized at the beginning of December that we have basically one more and then she is off to college and off to experience life. Brace yourself mamas your heart is about to fall into shambles. I pretty much shut down. Not my best moment. Nothing prepares us for this new stage of life that we are about to embark on.

I am learning how to navigate this new chapter. It is not easy but our relationship is constantly changing and growing into something amazing. I would certainly not turn down any helpful tricks on this issue.

I am praising God for the opportunity to love this girl while she is on loan to me.

Stay tuned on a pretty exciting project we are working on together. Until then, Kinsley- you are my saving grace!

This song hits my heart! Take a listen.

Get Your Copy

You guys, it happened! I am beyond thrilled to announce my book is out there for purchase! I am blown away by the love and support for this endeavor. I found the process of writing this book really healing. My path to Jesus is anything but a straight line but my detours and backtracking make me who I am.

Below are links to where you can find the book! Please feel free to share with anyone who would find this book a good read.

Here is a brief synopsis of the book.

Do you catch yourself falling victim to the perfection trap? Me too girl, me too! Let’s dive in and see how conforming to the world has distorted our reality. Time to press into God’s truth and see for yourself.

I wrote this book to share my imperfections with other women. To remind them that Pinterest is not reality and that burning breakfast, forgetting practices, and pulling into school on two wheels are examples of everyday, real life. I want to share my reality with other women to give them hope and encouragement that even though we may not have it all together, we have a God that is faithful and so good. He knows of our faults and loves us right where we are. I know for a fact, that I am a mess most days, but every day, I am still the daughter of the one true King. I am simply an imperfect woman who needs less of me and more of Jesus every day. I am also okay with my imperfections because I know that through my God, I am perfectly and wonderfully made.…/the…/1140453567


My words for 2022 are surrender and rest. I choose words and verses for the New Year because I have continuously failed at New Year’s resolutions. I want to grow closer to God and in doing so the rest will fall into place. My verse for surrender is John 3:30, “He must increase, but I must decrease.” Simply put, more of Jesus, less of Tara. My other word is rest and the verse I chose is from Matthew 11:28, ” Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” I want to do a better job of resting at the feet of Jesus instead of constantly finding something to keep me busy. See, I struggle with finding quite time with Jesus. I allow myself to be distracted by my phone and the notification ding of my watch. In 2022, I am doing a better job of having purposeful time with Jesus and finding rest at His feet. I want to learn to be completely dependent on Jesus. This is hard for this control freak personality, but I want more Jesus and less me.

What are your words/ scripture for 2022? I am ready to press in this year.

I LOVE this song on Surrender.


I used to stupidly think that saying I am sorry was a sign of weakness. I was full of pride. I literally struggled with saying I was sorry. I never wanted to admit that I was wrong and saying I am sorry meant that I was wrong. My poor husband had to deal with me and my immature princess mentality. 

Then God.

Oh, thank heaven that God stepped in and humbled this former princess to her core. I was in serious need of a reality check. I expected others to forgive me but was super slow to extend forgiveness to others.

But then God.

We finally got our act together and started attending church. We found some amazing friends who have become more like family that are life-giving and truth-telling. We have sat around tables and had some really deep and meaningful discussions. These friends have helped me learn a sign of a truly healthy believer is someone who quickly flows forgiveness to others.

For a long time, I spent time in a rut of unforgiveness. I did not think that I was worthy of forgiveness. I spent my time wallowing in a pit of thinking I was undeserving of forgiveness. I wasted time thinking I could not be forgiven for my sins. I had drifted too far for too long to be welcomed back, let alone forgiven. Whether or not I deserved forgiveness was never my choice to make. Forgiveness can never be truly achieved until we first forgive ourselves. God’s love is beyond words. He forgives without batting an eye. As humans, we feel like we need to justify everything. The truth is, we should allow forgiveness to be a constant flow. I am not saying you should be a doormat, not at all. I am simply saying that we need let forgiveness flow so we can reach a new deeper relationship with God. Unresolved unforgiveness is a setback and a heavy burden that we were never meant to bare.

The Bible is clear on forgiveness. We see in Ephesians, Mark, 1 John, Matthew and numerous other books in the Bible where we are told to forgive so your sins may be forgiven. Forgiveness is not easy. It is humbling. But it is commanded throughout scripture.

Psalm 103:10-14 states, “he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities. 11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; 12 as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. 13 As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him; 14 for he knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust.” God tells us through this passage that His love for us surpasses all understanding. He is compassionate. He has a great love for those who fear Him. You guys, He will meet you when you are the in peaks and He will be present during the valleys. Here’s a thought… God is saying to you about your past, “you no longer live at this address, why are you still receiving mail where you no longer live?”  We all have a past and it is just that a past. But when you use your past and turn it to a testimony, oh man, that is when forgiveness begins to flow. That is when that gal who was barely hanging on came to know Jesus because YOUR story was so similar to hers or had such an impact on her heart. Your past could be the key to changing someone’s future in coming Jesus.

Do we really deserve forgiveness?  Here’s the simple truth, it is not our choice to make as to who is deemed as forgivable. We are trying to step into God’s shoes and pass out who is deserving of forgiveness. He is completely in charge in this area. So, it would be a wise to allow God to handle his affairs without our input.

I constantly found myself struggling to forgive others. Once, I “changed addresses” and forgave myself that is when I was finally able to begin the process of forgiving others. Forgiveness has been a process. It has not always been easy and there are some hurts that are hard to move past. I get it. I have housed some hurts for a long time. I became resentful and angry. This resentfulness and anger always kept me at bay. I could never really find true joy because of harboring anger and resentment. This stole my time and energy. Forgiveness is a decision. We need to decide to let go and move on. The struggles with forgiveness are typically related to someone taking an offense to a certain situation as to what someone said or did. This can wreak havoc if you let the offense settle and take up residency within the walls of your home. We need to change the course and not let an offense be fed and occupy any additional space. This is why forgiveness is so powerful. We need to take a little lesson from our friends Elsa and Anna and we just need to “Let it go.”

Forgiveness is something that I will be focusing on and working on in 2022. I am going to really work hard on letting things go and not allowing a simple offense take up residency in my heart. Let’s focus on healing and forgiving ourselves so we can in turn forgive others and grow in our relationship with Jesus.  We have an amazing opportunity as believers for the promises of a New Year. There is so much freedom in forgiveness. Let’s use 2022 to speak life into ourselves and each other.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE this song.

Say Goodbye to the Lukewarm Christian

I am writing this out of a place of concern and love, but I am going to be rather blunt, so go ahead and buckle up because this could be a bumpy ride. Let’s just get right to the point, the time has come to choose a side. There is no such thing as a lukewarm Christian. What does the Bible say about Christians being lukewarm? In Revelations 3:16, “So, because you are lukewarm- neither hot nor cold- I am about to spit you out of my mouth.” Let’s be clear, when we accepted Jesus into our lives, he expected us to be fully vested in a relationship with him. He never intended for those who truly believe in him to be sitting on the sidelines just dipping his or her toes in the pool to “test the waters.” Nope, sorry friends. Jesus wants us to be in an intimate relationship with him. I would describe a lukewarm Christian as someone who is not fully COMITTED to a relationship with Jesus. Well, here’s a little wake up call and a spiritual smack in the face that is desperately needed during these times…YOU CANNOT FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT WITH GOD. Stop testing the waters. You guys, I get it, I was you. I cared too much about what others thought of me and I tried to fake it and then life happened as it always does. Life presented a situation that broke me. In the middle of my broken heart, my walls came down and Jesus took control. I prayed, I screamed and I cried; and then did it all over again. You see, things were not really working too well with me in charge. I tried to keep God on the sideline. Not a good idea. Jesus has never gave up on me. He continued to pursue me. You guys, he is actively pursuing you. He wants a real relationship with you. I am here to tell you, I wasted way too many years not pursuing Him. I wasted too many years not going all in. The time to go all in is now. We should be running to Jesus and not from Jesus. Your faith journey will take off like never before. You will begin to grow like you never believed possible. When you quit caring what the world thinks and you start truly living for the Lord…well, that’s when you truly begin living. Jesus will meet us right where we are at and turn it for his glory. The line in the sand has been drawn. The time to go all in is upon you. You know that there is no greater love than the love from God. You know he will continue to pursue you even when you push him away. You know he is in the business of forgiveness and you know HE is the only way Home. Put an end to attending on Sunday for that Christian cred’ with the in laws, your spouse, or your parents. Be present in the moment. It is time to get your house in order. Jesus is the gatekeeper to heaven. We all know that there is no amount of money that will earn your way to Heaven. People have decided to sit on the sidelines and be Sunday Christians. Well, sweet friend, I am here to tell you that the time has come to decide where you stand as a disciple for Christ. Either you are all in or you are going to continue to choose the way of the world. I was a Sunday Christian for years, let me be clear, this is not something that I am proud of. I will tell you that 2020 and 2021 has released a warrior inside of me. I am living my life for Christ. I am living my faith out in the open and I have no reservations about doing so. I decided that I am taking a stand for the things that matter and are biblical truths. There is really something to be said about serving. To be completely in, you have to learn to serve God and serve others and do so with joyful hearts. Let’s take a look at Galatians 5:13, “You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the flesh; rather, serve one another humbly in love.” It really is just that simple. Serve with a joyful heart. Get involved. Take the Four Finds class at LP to see the ways you can serve. The days of the ‘Convenience Christian’ or Sunday only Christian are over. It is time to stand as disciples and start moving for Christ. As Christians, we have been tasked with sharing the Bible and serving others. I firmly believe that when you share your testimony, God steps in and begins to stir hearts. We can no longer stand on the sidelines. The days of testing the water they are over as well. We need to rise up as the body of the church and be bold in our faith. We need to be bold in our discipleship of Christ. We need to be bold as we serve others within our communities. We need to live for Jesus and not for the ways of the world. Jesus and all of heaven are rejoicing as Earth is staging one of the greatest revivals in Christian history right now. Trust me, this is certainly something you want to be a part of. I firmly believe that Christians are at a pivotal moment in time. I believe we are faced with an ultimatum. I think 2020 and 2021 have ushered a Great Awakening or a revival among people. What I mean by this is simply that the time has come to choose if you are going to take a stand and be a strong disciple for Jesus or if you are going to be a “Sunday Christian.” The lines have been drawn and now is the time to choose where you stand in your walk with Christ. I mean think about it, every day we are closer to God’s return. I want you all to be ready. I want you to know that I deeply care about your eternal future. The days of the counter-fake Christian are over. The days of the disciple are here. Let’s join together as disciples. It is time for the Church as whole to take a stand. Take a stand for your Christian principles. Simply put, read your Bible and apply it to everyday life. The time to be sheep under the control of man is over. We seek to follow our Heavenly Father. We do not find our identities through the ways of the world and if we are, the time has come to make a change or you will be headed for calamity. God equips everyday folks like you and me. I firmly believe it is because testimonies are real and relatable. I would encourage each and every one of you to be bold disciples. I would encourage to put on the Armor of God and live your life fully for God. Take a stand for your beliefs. There is something to be said about what is going on at Living Proof. God is moving within our community. God is continuing to move and stir hearts. The church is being sent out as disciples to encourage one another, to pray for one another and to love each other well. I know this may strike a chord with some of you and well…I hope it does. Your salvation is not something to take lightly. I hope you are encouraged to get off the fence and go all in for Christ. One thing I know for sure, you have accountability, love and support within the LP Community. It is truly amazing to be a part of something so incredible. Something that is completely organic and guided by faith not man. I will leave you with this thought, the world will fail you; man will fail you, that is inevitable; but God will never fail you. He will never leave you. He is omnipresent. He is the calm during the storm. Remember this world is not our final destination. We are passing through till we go Home. And we know there is only one way to enter that Home. As you contemplate your stance as a believer, you need to be able to stand in judgement as you will be asked- did you know Jesus; did you really know him? I am lifting you all up in prayer today. I am praying that this message hits home and hearts are stirred. I am praying that God is in the driver’s seat. I am praying that God grabs ahold of you and the walls come tumbling down. I am praying that LP continues to reach hearts for Jesus through acts of service and loving on members of the community. I am praying that there is this Great Awakening within believers and that God is on the lips of the masses. I pray that people take a stand in their faith and live out their faith boldly. I pray that the ways of the world fall by the wayside. Wishing you a wonderful week.

There is this incredibly poignant scene in “War Room” that gets me every time.  This scene is one of the reasons I have felt convicted to write a blog on this topic.

Proverbs Bible Study

Spending some time in Proverbs with one of my favorite girls.


Debunking the Perfection Myth

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I always wanted everything to be perfect.  I had a distorted Disney view of perfect.  You know the one, where everyone lives happily ever after and everything looks like it is straight out of a magazine cover.  I remember being a young girl dreaming of this picture perfect life, white picket fence and all.  Well…I am calling crap on the whole ideal of PERFECTIONISM.  I have a great life.  I have been searching for “perfection” in almost everything under the sun.  I wanted the perfect wedding.  Nope.  Not perfect.  The unity candle melted in the trunk of my car for crying out loud!  I am pretty sure wages were made as to whether or not my dress would fit me (cause it did not three weeks before the big day and I refused to try it back on before my wedding day.)  Not sure what I was trying to prove there.  I expected the perfect balance as a working mom and wife.  Still working on that one.  Y’all I expected my kids to be these diligent little people who always had it together and ACTUALLY would want to keep their rooms clean.  Uh ya, not so much.  I set completely unrealistic expectations for family and myself.  I held us to a standard that we can never achieve.  We are fallible.  We are human.

It is only in recent months, that I have finally learned a hard lesson.  We do not find ourselves through perfection, we find it through our Faith in Jesus.  I mean, let’s be real here, the only “perfect human” to walk this Earth is Jesus.  And last I checked he still owned the only title of “perfection.”

Life is messy.  The cars and house do not self clean, but man if they did!  Kids are humans. they are going to lose it from time to time or basically everyday.  You are going to charbroil cinnamon rolls.  Your husband is going to fail you.  Bottom line is our contentment does not come from people, Hobby Lobby (I do love some Hobby Lobby, but I digress.)  Our peace comes from our faith and a personal relationship with God.

I was not putting God first.  I was trapped in that circle of putting the world first. For a long time, I searched for perfection in my home, my children, my husband, or my job.   I was certainly not finding contentment through a relationship with God. I wanted perfection in worldly things.

I am no longer searching for the perfect in everyone and everything.  Let’s be honest, my house is LIVED IN.  On any given day, my house is somewhere between Better Homes and Gardens and an episode of Hoarders.  My kids like to keep everything like their dad, including packages things come in.

What have I learned from all this?  I have learned that I need to press into Christ more and the ways of the world less.  This is tough.  Everyday I am struggling.  I am perfectly imperfect.  Some days I am a straight up hot mess.  You know what?  That is just fine with me because I am HIS mess.  He knows I am flawed and I know that I am flawed too.  Sisters, we need to love on each other and encourage one another.  We need to join forces as a strong tribe of women who are there for each other through the storms of life, and there will be storms, but hopefully the storm of perfectionism is no longer one of those storms.

Until Next Time…

Philippians 3:12 
Not that I have already obtained it or have already become perfect, but I press on so that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus.